nope.no one understand

i always being so repellant

i dunno what actually im traumatized of

is it being in a close relationship with smone?

deep down my heart, i want to hav dat kinda relationship.

cus i wnna share it all

i neva let myself hav comfort with someone

im always so suspicious

alienated.

i always choose a way that diverged from others

i choose to hate chicken

i choose to deny my feelings

i choose to let myself being a stiff person

and

this is all already embedded in me long ago

smtimes i would feel empty

my new friends here seems to somehow dislike me

or is it me being unsecure

it is bcus i dont talk their language

i dont see their view

and i dont walk their lane

they r just being a group of typical girly girls

but smhow i cant accept it

cus im too annoyed

i want at least smone

to

rescue me

and

bring me to a comfort zone where i can be myself again

a friend here where can replace my besties back then 

besties,i really miss u guys

the pearl of my life