u and always u

when will ever this world had enough of me?

after one, came another

suffering in silence

wears a mask of a cheerful face

when half of my heart and mind is goin crazy

thinking bout him

thinking bout my family

have to excel in my studies

 ayah

everyday im missing u

hoping that god provide u the garden of heaven

every single minutes

memories of us flashing back

when u buy me my very first badminton racket

when u say ' acik,buat susu utk ayah'

'acik,urut kaki ayah'

'ayah suka acik masakkan sayur utk ayah'

;(

i wish to cook for u ...again...

i miss

when u teach me to play golf

smtimes when u get very furious at me

when im being miscellanous

when u promise me u would get well to visit me at UM

i remembered when it was for the last time u drive me out

u wanna buy a pair of shoes and we had breakfast at mcd

that time

i know u r in awful pain

but still

u still wnna take me out

it was for the last time,a breakfast together

ayah

u always so silence

y just u cant tell how much pain u r in

y just cant u tell u need help

u always suffer alone

 

u smiled when abg amir told u i got straight a's

that time u just had chemotheraphy

but still, u smile for me

ayah,do i fulfilled ur expectations?

there's so much i've planned for u

at least i want u to see me bein a successful daughter for once

being a doctor dat'll treat u during ur old days 

but u gone too soon

i just can do nothing at all

looking at u lying helplessly on the bed

it was painful for me

but more painful for u

do i feel glad to let u go?

away from ur pain?

i just need u dad, i just miss u dad

i hope for a normal happy family

but now

i already lost the best man in my life

im tired of this

after one,came another

when will lights ever comes?

you are the reason i tried so hard

to impress u.theres nothing more

ibu pun rindukan ayah

she hoped u will come into her dream

she even wants to buy house near u,

just to see ur graveyard whenever she misses u

this is the time where a question is raised

should i broke down and immerse into this world

or

should i take life as normal when theres a hole inside me

ayah,

ayah ayah ayah ayah