the story i only know

im writting dis for i noe dat no one would eva read my blog
its just i want a place where i can write out my feelings
there's been too much things goin on around me
and
its affecting me deep
i hav no place where i can share my stories
nor
a shoulder i want to lean on
frens could see my jolly merry face
while
my heart kept a misery that myself cant defeat it
my head keep thinking for a better solutions towards my probs
it's a reality i cant neva escape
it's a brutal reality i hav to accept
i've been longing for a small happiness that would stop by to take a glance at me
then i would be satisfied
i hav to pretend dat there's nothing goin on in my life evryday
i hate dramas
i fake a laugh, i fake a smile
dats burning me
while my head is thinking bout the 'matters'
so difficult to spit it out
so hard to swallow
i just cant tell the whole stories
i can only express the feelings im havin
one advice
money is not everything
family love is
appreciate ur parents
b4 u regret