i mean paradise, he gave me hell

the title says it all 

 

Rise and burn

Im bein crazy this week..
Evry act ive made, it seems not coming from my mind
I gotta stop it
Bfore ppl starts to change perception of me

:)

Yes
I cant stop smiling tnight
A sense of relieved

God, thanx
Alhamdulillah
I'll make this opportunity a success

True it's the truth

Shit, i just deleted some of my truthful previous posts where i express the other side of my feelings so publicly.

Im not falling down the stairs and i will not keep on hoping

I will be enjoying my life even though it is such a solitary and monotonous one

Ok i sound pathetic

An evryday torment

Yeah
Im playing a game with myself
Like a fool
A pull of affection

Whose fault is it that make me startg to feel that way
Whose fault that make me keep a high hope
I could always leave this game
But i just couldnt afford to leave the player

I need a brave act
Im waiting for it where we could leave this game and be frank
There is so much fun things to do
So much fun stories to share

Make the move

The line if patience is now officially broken

I hate myself
I hate me for being myself
I hate all about myself
I hate my face, my hands, legs, eyes
I even hate my hormones (??)
God, y u eva even creates me

I have nothing
Ppl wont even notice me
I have no one
I keep things to myself till i feel like biting off my toes
I have nothing , no one and nothing, nothing

If i would slap myself without feelg much pain,
I would have
Till i'll lose my head
Cus i even disgusted to see my reflection

Shit
What am i doin